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At times the limbo that the heart does is painful as it could be. Indecisive actions it takes confuses and never is clear.

Should I or should I not, rejection is a norm. To learn and experience is at times is to face trials and failures.

Though at times it's that something or someone you really really want, being negative may just be a life saver after all.

Heartbreak can be the worse feeling of all, maybe staying longing just might be the safest path of all.

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Got to make it happen

The weekend was spent strangely; if you've read the post before this you find that I'm currently are having problems with my discipline level.

If someone like would have come to myself right now, I would have gotten a deservedly "Get your fucking act together and finish the damn coursework so you'll get the degree you piece of shit". Honest advice, hard but so true.

So where is the post coming to? Almost nowhere you might think. What's with the repeat?

Last Friday I met someone, which is quite extraordinarily special. He has climbed mountains, joined those marathon, cycling and running combo thingy, learned music, made loads of money, became respected man in the society and build a kick-ass house.

His motto, Just do what you need to do so you won't have regrets later. With that he is also learning guitar at age 60. Marvelous.

I was there all awed thinking I should really start on my coursework and better be doing stuff that I really want to do.

It's one thing he made me feel a tad pathetic about what I've done in my life comparative to him but it's a nice way to think that thre is so much that I can do.

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So I am doomed

Doomed to being a sort of an underachiever? I ask myself the important question every few days especiallywhen I'm feeling the most relaxed.

It's almost the ultra way of getting myself all hyped up of cheating myself out of laziness and getting something done over the weekend of rather then bumming around watching the telly or lifting weights which I'm getting very much fond off.

Unfortunately this time around it's just not working. The coursework is far from done, exams are very near and here I'm thinking I want to skip over to the local Baskin and Robins to grab some ice cream.

Why oh why do I do this to myself. Self torture is somewhat very fammiliar everytime timelines needs to be met effectively.

Can I get the fucked up give the full concentration of gaining a little more than average this semester?

I don't know, but the thing I know is it's pretty damn hard to get the ball rolling.

Send a prayer that I'll drop the lazy bone and work on the important stuffs now rather than later?

Please?

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